Friday, October 31, 2008


We are home from the hospital and so-far-so-good.  He's got a brand new walker to run around with and the kids will be truly happy to see their daddy.

All is right with the world.  But he's asleep, so don't hold your breath.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

WARNING, Surgical and gross stuff update.

I handle blood well, seriously.  Cuts, scrapes, my son running thru a glass door.  I'm ok with it.   So is my husband.  Phlegm, that's another story.  I've had a little of it lately, but tonight during sick husband duty.  My husband started coughing up phlegm from the surgery and the tube, etc.

He barfed it up into a cup which I had to dump.  I barely made it to the toilet without up-chucking.  I love that my husband who couldn't pee at home without the door shut all of a sudden doesn't care if the world sees everything he has to offer - if you know what I mean.  I get to dispose of goop from his lungs, I've seen his beautiful backside hanging out of the back of his gown and I do have a picture of him walking down the hall with his walker and his cath bag hanging on said walker - but I will be holding that out for when he misbehaves.  So keep your eyes open.  It may show up here sometime.  

He is doing well and following directions.  He should be home tomorrow if he can get rid of his post-op fever.  Cross your fingers.  I can't wait to get pictures of him walking down the street with his walker.  HEHEHE!  Shhhh, don't tell.

I apologize if this doesn't exactly make sense.  Its late and I'm tired.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Only I could pull this off

So I think I'm dying from a really nasty sinus infection, finally give up trying to work and decide to go home.  I shut the car door in the office parking lot and have the doctor's office on the phone before I get to the parking lot exit.  After a few I can't make that they just have me come in.  It turns out I have 4 'itises.  FOUR.  Sinusitis, Pharyngitis, Bronchitis & Adenitis.  


I mean, one OK, two not so hot, but FOUR and my husband is having back surgery tomorrow and my mother is coming up here today.  Don't you want to be me?

Monday, October 27, 2008


So the Husband's new surgery date is Wednesday. Thank the surgery gods for not making us wait any longer. Mom will be up to help me with the kiddos. Is this going to be fun or what?

Does anyone know where this is?

To say that I had a vivid dream last night would be an understatement. I dreamt of a house, not just any house a cute and ancient cottage from the outside with beautiful stone/rock detailing in grey and a beautiful dessert rust color. It was located on an large island a short distance from the mainland and could only be reached by boat. The grounds were beautiful and well-maintained with sidewalks and cobblestone baths and everywhere you looked was green.

In the dream my husband and I had bought this with another couple to redo. Why we chose a partnership I don't really know and my husband was really not a noticeable character in the dream. At first I said that we should take it to the studs and start over, then we walked in and I immediately new NO ONE was touching this house. It was completely furnished and overwhelmingly beautiful. The downstairs living room could fit my entire house in it right now. Huge cathedral ceiling, probably 4 alcoves of bookshelves along one wall creating private reading/studying areas. Embroidered chairs and beautiful wood tables. The only thing that needed to be changed was the lightly stained bookshelves and wood work needed to be stripped and stained dark. I don't remember much about the kitchen, but the bedrooms were amazing, the antique brass beds were covered in exquisitely detailed quilts. The furniture was amazing and I could quickly see how it needed to be arranged to fit each room as it was slightly cluttered. Amazingly enough there were no mold, mildew or old people smell anywhere in the house.

One wall of windows overlooked the sea and as we were standing in one long open room that had been used as a children's sleeping loft with beds everywhere I looked out and saw about 20 huge whales coming toward the island. The house shook. I know that would not happen, but this is a dream remember. It was earth shatteringly beautiful. We then were led out to the water to be shown the launch and unfortunately the alarm brought me out of a beautiful land and back to reality.

I want to go back and soon. I want to find that house and buy it. I want my dad to paint it.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Have fangs?

I know I am soooooo behind the curve, but I just finished Twilight this afternoon.  Could not put it down.  I am somewhat obsessed by vampires.  1st with Moonlight, then with TrueBlood and now with Twilight.  They truly are the sexiest of all monsters.  Kate Beckinsale in tight black leather/vinyl or whatever didn't hurt that either.  I could watch Underworld ever time its on.  

Not that I'm looking for a vampire to lust after me, or become my lover, so if you are one, you are not invited into my house and don't come looking for me.  I'm just saying they are sexy.   I'm also about to start New Moon, if its as good as the first will be done by Tuesday.

So I'm about to be made fun of

I've given up trying to get anything else accomplished this weekend.  Did I manage to do what I said?  A big giant NO would be the answer, but I did accomplish a lot, mostly avoiding the one thing I needed to do.  I washed 4 loads of clothes on Friday night.  I washed 6 loads on Saturday and another 4 today.  I don't live in a very big house so how the 4 of us could generate that much laundry is well, discusting.  But I did wash our sheets and the kids sheets, comforters and that included the matress pads.  I also managed two 30 gallon trash bags of trash and a 30 gallon bag to donate.

Ethan had a soccer game on Saturday and we had a Halloween party on Saturday night.  The kids had a ball.  I also spent probably 2 hours running errands.  Check out the Zombies:

On Sunday I got up and made the kids pancakes.  Then got them ready to go visit their Bubbie with their Aunt.  While we were waiting for Aunt Anjie to pick them up, I got adventurous and trimmed the trees in the front yard.   Can you believe that?  I also went to the grocery store and later this afternoon to Target for toilet paper and cat food.  I'm exhausted and plan to do nothing more than dinner tonight.  

I guess my husband gets to make fun of me.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Work for today and the weekend

Life is a whirlwind of change is it not? I find that day to day I always have something else to stress and worry about. Nothing is ever easy and from day to day something different always pops up to make my day just a little bit harder. Waiting till Monday to get any idea of when the second back surgery on The Husband is driving me insane. Probably him too, but this is about me not him.

I am looking for “inspirational” stories to read at the opening of the next PTA Board. (Yes, I am now in the “in-crowd” of the PTA Board. I feel special and accepted and well, basically all my insecurities are gone.) Anyway, I’m reading all this uplifting, I mean gut wrenching stories that are tugging at strings in my heart and feeling completely over-emotional. If I stay in this mode I will probably start to cry when I pick the children up just because they once lived in my body and are a gift from God.

Then I will get home and see the reality of the mess they have created. I’m then going to become an evil and mean mother insisting those children that 20 minutes ago were a gift of God are in fact spawn of the Devil, because no angels would keep their room like that.

I have promised myself that if I do nothing else this weekend I will clean up all the paperwork stacking in various parts of the house up. Yes honey, I just put it in writing so that means I have to do it or risk having you either make fun of me for all of eternity.

I want to take the new camera lens out this weekend as well, but will only do it if I can get all the other things on my to do list done. Wish me luck!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Feel his pain.....

I have had an unbelievable last few days.  My husband has Spondylolysis he was scheduled for a Axial Lift which would have meant 1 week at home and 8 weeks no lifting.  So I shipped the kids off with some friends, who I basically owe so much that I probably have to babysit for the next 5 years every Saturday night, and set off for the hospital at way to early in the morning.  The doctor showed up 30 minutes late (I should have known at this time something was up.) and so we started late.  

The two hour procedure ended an hour early because after cutting a whole at my husband's tailbone (OW!) and trying three different times they could not find the correct angle to do the fusion.   So now we get to have nasty harsh back surgery with probably 4-8 weeks at home because they have to go thru the abdomen instead of a nice little cut on the back.  YIPPEE!!  He spent the whole drive home from the hospital saying four letter words and son of a bitch.  Then made it inside and passed out cold for a few hours.  

Oh and the best part I have to fight with the evil B*TCH from hell at his office about getting him on short term disability.  I'm not exaggerating about the evil you-know-what either.  My husband can't deal with her at all.  I hope I'm up for the task.  Right now I'm completely and totally exhausted, this is probably the most incredibly boring post with no smart-ass comments, so I am off to my cushy bed and hopefully oblivion for a few hours.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


You have got to check out the black box thing on the side.  ITS SO MUCH FUN.  

I promise you.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Rhetorical Question of the week?

WHY, are there so many imbeciles working in customer service departments.  I'm just saying......

Sunday, October 19, 2008

My opinion matters, right?

AT&T has the worst customer service I think in the history of the Universe.  Yes, the Universe.  Apparently I cancelled my Dish with AT&T and added U-Verse to my bill, with a GIANT, termination fee.  Which of course I did not.  

Side Note:  ALL companies that require some kind of contract usually have crappy customer service or crappy services in general, hence, making you sign some ridiculous contract that charges you a GIANT cancellation fee because they suck and its their way of making you keep paying them.

Anyway, I'm a little upset with the above mention company, but did manage to find out while talking to a sales agent today (I didn't even raise my voice - I SWEAR!) - because apparently there is no customer service on Sunday.  Like no one has ever had a problem with their service on Sunday.  You can order new services (not cancel - I tried) but there is always someone available to help you purchase more crap from them.  I have been assured by the Dish Network people - Andrea you were absolutely fabulous! - that my service will not be turned off in the middle of tonight's True Blood episode.  THANK THE LORD!  And I will somehow manage to survive and plan my attack on the unsuspecting department in the AM.  

Got it?  Ya well, wish me luck!

Friday, October 17, 2008


I think I might have actually made some headway with my school district.  After the parent teacher conference last night I made a point to make an appointment with the principal of the school.  H2's teacher said that he sat down with him to work on a TPR (??)  she discovered that he couldn't perform up to the standards required.  I asked for help, she said again to talk to the counselor.  I also called the counselor after calming down from the morning freak-out (and the Xanax kicked in) and left a message for the counselor regarding H2's situation.  Why she hadn't gotten back to me regarding the note that I left her from his doctor.

SHAZAM!  After a few specific examples and letting her know exactly how I felt (without sounding like a complete idiot) she is going to speak to the diagnostician and set up some interventions in the classroom so we can do a little evaluation.  I'm still going to ride her butt (aren't you impressed I didn't use the other word?) about what's being done, but for the first time in a long time I feel heard.  Do you know what it means to a woman when she feels heard.?  Its like fat free dark chocolate that taste's good and makes you lose weight.  Or maybe a night with Johnny Depp.  OR BOTH!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Meme -

A meme from Spookyrach's blog
I am: loud
I want: more
I wish: and wish and wish
I hate: big red
I miss: seeing lots of comments on my blog
I fear: heights. Just thinking about it makes things quiver on me we don't need to discuss here.
I hear: noises in the dark
I wonder: why
I regret: more than you know
I am not: always where I want to be
I dance: better than Elaine on Seinfeld - but not by much.
I sing: like a wet cat in heat
I cry: every time I watch Terms of Endearment
I am not always: gracious
I make with my hands: food, that my kids eat and complain about way too much.
I write: a lot that will never be published
I confuse: myself
I need: less stress
I should: relax
I start: slow
I finish: this meme
I tag: you!

I'm not depressed - I swear

I'm in a dark and contemplative mindset today. I feel like letting my mind wander till I find the answer to a question I didn't ask. Or maybe pondering the book of Proverbs. Or even escaping into the lives of others in a book. Rainy, dreary days do this to me. I've been listening to morose, depressive music that you tend to only listen to after a break-up. I don't know why, my husband and I haven't even argued in the last week. OMG - did I actually say that? He has accused me of nagging, which I probably did but we've actually been on a fairly decent run of no stress and strife so I can't blame this on him either.

I really should be writing poetry today. Mindsets like this produce my best poetry. Oh, idea! See I just needed a creative outlet. Writing helps solve everything. I'm going to lock myself in my room later and create.

And I'm putting labels and stamps on envelopes at work today and I think I need some Goo Gone to get the sticky off my fingers.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I am obsessed with this song.

The song is Cold Ground by Rusty Truck.

Holy Fuel Economy Batman

I filled up my car for less than $50 and I have one of those cars that require premium gas.  I haven't done that in ages.  I think the last time I filled up it cost me almost $70.  WOW!  Yea!  

Is this good press for the Republicans or the Democrats?  

Blah, de blah, blah

I woke the kids this morning and E informed me that it was way to early to wake him up. I answered back that it was the same time I always get him up. "NO, it is still way dark outside," was his reply. His father and I couldn't convince him that it was cloudy outside and that the days were getting shorter due to fall. He was not having it so apparently with E, I am in the doghouse.

I feel so blah today. The weather is dreary, my allergies are acting up, I feel fat. All good reasons for blah. Also I am running into a lot of people who weren't even in the house when they were handing out common sense. Jeez...I could just scream!


Thursday, October 9, 2008

Hey politicians, Want my vote? Then fix this...

I am yet again disappointed in our public school system.  Maybe I'm jumping the gun (I doubt it) but they don't seem to be eager to help my poor little Hunter.  We went back to the eye doctor today and Hunter's left eye has lost more vision and he is now a -8.0 in his left eye.  His right stayed steady at -6.75.  UGH.  The doctor says he might be dyslexic as well, but when I called the school counselor to talk to her as she suggested after this follow up, to only be pushed off yet again.  "We don't test until after 1st grade."  

OK, so my doctor says he needs to be tested as soon as possible, yet they say the won't test him for another 18 months.  Are you sure you are educators?  I mean have you heard of early intervention?  I have put my best people on the job.  A more passionate advocate I couldn't find.  She's not in my town, but has been an honorary member of our family for a long time.  She'll find out the questions I am lost on and point me in the right direction.  

I am also working on some other avenues and Unstable, I might have to borrow LMSKP, but I will hold off until I get my bearings on this.  We have a referral to Scottish Rite, I will get on that even if the school district decides to lower itself and test my kid.   

How frustrating is that?

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I'm's official.

So the doctor called me this afternoon and spent probably 20 minutes on the phone with me.  Not bad huh?  I'm quoting here "you're crazy and you need to be medicated."  Now before you go and huff in outrage I totally took this out of context, but she did say that.  Bottom line its easier to treat hormone issues by treating the symptoms.  In my case the massive amounts of wired energy or manic anxiety with anti-anxiety meds.  My comment was that my husband was going to have a field day with me needing to be medicated and then she said the above quote.  "You can tell him I said you're crazy and you need to be medicated.  It will make his day."

Anyway, we are going to cut back on the caffeine - how am I ever going to stay awake during the day.  We are going to get a MRI to check out the fibroid issues to see if I can add hormones to the mix & work on getting me better sleep and probably send me to a shrink to get me on the right meds.  So basically I'm nuts, but we already knew that did we?

I found a new blog today. And I love it

Found a great blog today one you should so check out. Confessions of a Random Chick. I love it!

Its just not my day.

I've cried about 4 times today, teared up another million. I'm so hungry I've been asking for a porterhouse. The stupid Women's Wellness Center decided they needed to cancel my appointment for a mammogram so they could hold a staff meeting instead. I spent days trying to find someone to pick up my children - now all for nothing. I haven't slept worth a damn in weeks, my back hurts, my boob hurts so bad I can barely tolerate a bra. My husband doesn't really want to discuss this with me - I completely understand, but who do you really talk to about feeling like your having a nervous breakdown and no one will listen?

Your blog that who. Blogs always listen and they are not judgemental either.

I have a call into the Gyn. I'll try with all my might to maintain calm, but I don't think it will happen.

CLARIFICATION: I didn't mean my husband wouldn't speak with me about my hormonal problems, I meant that the last thing any man wants to do is have a 45 minute conversation with a woman about her hormones issues.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

One with a picture and a movie

Saturday my sister, Stehle and I went on a little adventure in East Texas.  We started out first watching the sunrise over White Rock Lake.  

Then ended up going into every cemetery we passed, 1st the Oldest Catholic Cemetery in Dallas that I went and visited with SpookyRach a while back.  Then we went to Greenwood Cemetery that is across the street - Rachel & I didn't manage to get in there as it was locked, but Stehle and I did and what an eye-opening experience.  First it was extremely well kept and loaded with veterans and interesting monuments.  I loved the streets signs.  We also visited Sand Flats Cemetery in Van Zandt County which was not kept up.  It had a pile of brush in the center that was just sad.  Behind the Sand Flats Cemetery was the Pioneer Cemetery in even worse shape.  It took us 15 minutes to pick all the sticker burrs out of our socks and shoes.  

I couldn't do the blogger slide show due to the size of the file, so I uploaded it to youtube.  Check it out.  

Thursday, October 2, 2008

I'm too old????

I was talking at work yesterday with a girl in the office about music.  I said I had a song stuck in my head by Does it Offend You, Yeah?  We also talked about Foo Fighters (my fav!), Jackson United, Kings of Leon, Keane, Death Cab for Cutie & The Verve.    

Some of my current favorites.  

I was informed by a gentleman in my office I was too old to listen to that stuff.  What??????  I realize I'm 40, but my life hasn't ended.  You don't turn 40 and immediately like elevator music or prefer singer songwriters from the 70's.  Oh, and I do like singer/songwriters from the 70's.  I love 80's music.  But I could listen to Sirius' ALT NATION all day long!  I could!  Honest to you-know-who.

Who else do I love?  Interpol, Cold War Kids, Kaiser Chiefs (love the new single!), The Black Keys, Low vs. Diamond, and MGMT.  I also love my classics like The Who, The Clash, Pink Floyd.  Great 80's & 90's bands you know the ones you hear on 1st Wave.  AND TOM JONES ROCKS LIVE!

I love music and I hate that some - forgive me for saying this - old dude says that now that I've hit my 40's I can't listen to what I like.  Go back to your easy listening/elevator music and leave me to discover the latest next big thing.

Hormone Overload!

I went to the Doctor, who mostly confirmed my boob diagnosis of overactive hormones.  She said its probably fibroids brought on by hormone fluctuations.  I will go get another Mammogram (yea squishies!) and an ultrasound just to be on the safe side.  Whoopee!  Can't wait!

Also, I am extremely hungry right now and I can't figure out why because I've eaten enough in the last hour for two people.  I'm going for hormones again.

UGH! Interruption by strange noise coming from cat. Not sounding good - whatever it was I hope it wasn't on the carpet.  Better go check it out.  Found nothing.....yet.  Please let there be nothing.
I'm off to Pilates to work off what I just ate.  

All this and I'm surprisingly upbeat

Today is not so much a bad day as its just off. I have a pain, a pain that I've had for about two weeks, it actually hurt so much this morning that I made an appointment to go see the doctor. I wouldn't normally 1) because its the female doctor and I already have my yearly coming up in less that a month & 2) I tend to procrastinate. But its my boob and I've already had one cyst removed and lack feeling in it most of the time; and I really don't want to find that I have a second one and didn't do anything about it. I'm sure I'll get a lecture for not calling earlier, but its probably just hormones. Better safe than sorry though.

I'm also incredibly disappointed with people today. My husband and I have a friend that's having a tough time and you know what - I'm pissed off that anyone would act with such callousness and hate for another human being. What really pisses me off is that its a woman doing this to her ex. I mean, its over, move on with your life. Beating someone else in the ground will not better you. And just in case you haven't been made aware of this there is thing called Karma. It will get you, I promise and I've already put my name in for a front row seat and a bag of popcorn to watch your demise.

The little cat Cagey who is just getting over a giant wound from his last war with one of the neighbors cats, has come home with a new giant wound. Luckily it is in the shaved area already, so maybe I can avoid another trip to the vet. The antibiotic shot he got is still in effect, so maybe I'm saved another vet bill.

I did manage to watch Private Practice & Dirty Sexy Money last night. YEA! I kind of liked what they did with Private Practice making it a little more edgy with moral dilemmas. I'm kind of wondering what happened to the blond chick - the twin on DSM. I mean where did she go? Did we just lose a character or what? Not as excited with DSM as I was last year. It may get marked off my list if it doesn't improve soon.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Presents? For me......?

OK, yes they are for me, I bought them. Fortunately, not with my own money! Yea!! Someone else's money. That is the best kind. True Fact!

So I spent the rest of my William Sonoma Gift Card from my birthday last night. Got my first piece of All Clad. WHOO!! HOO!! An 11" French Skillet. I also purchased a salad spinner - that was really for the husband and he's in charge of salads. I know that is a strange comment, but he likes salads and he's always wanted one, so I made him happy and me happy.

That is a win-win situation if I've ever heard one. OH NO, did I just say something positive. The world must be ending.