2009 sucked ass! Yes, mom, I just said it and I'm not taking it back. To say I had job troubles would be an understatement. In October of 2008 I got my hours cut in half, in April of 2009 I realized that I would be paying more money out in childcare over the summer than I would bring in so I turned in my notice. I've been out of work except for a few people in my office that have given me contract work. I thank them from the bottom of my heart. I have had a real estate license since 1998. It expires tonight and I'm not renewing it. The real estate market will get no better this year and I've never wanted to be a salesperson, I wanted to do my job better. My husband got screwed from his previous employer as well, but thankfully he is newly employed by a fabulous company with great benefits and things are looking up.
I have been hurt by what has occurred over the past year. My ego has been wounded. My confidence has dropped to nothing. But this is the end. THE END. 2009 is over in a little under 7 hours and from midnight forward, I am going to do something that is incredibly hard for me and I'm going to let it go. I'm only going to look forward and to the positive. My kids, my husband and I deserve that. So if I get all down-in-the-mouth - I want you to knock me around and point me in the right direction.
However, don't mess with my self-deprecating sense of humor. That isn't going anywhere.