I'm crazy....it's official.

So the doctor called me this afternoon and spent probably 20 minutes on the phone with me.  Not bad huh?  I'm quoting here "you're crazy and you need to be medicated."  Now before you go and huff in outrage I totally took this out of context, but she did say that.  Bottom line its easier to treat hormone issues by treating the symptoms.  In my case the massive amounts of wired energy or manic anxiety with anti-anxiety meds.  My comment was that my husband was going to have a field day with me needing to be medicated and then she said the above quote.  "You can tell him I said you're crazy and you need to be medicated.  It will make his day."

Anyway, we are going to cut back on the caffeine - how am I ever going to stay awake during the day.  We are going to get a MRI to check out the fibroid issues to see if I can add hormones to the mix & work on getting me better sleep and probably send me to a shrink to get me on the right meds.  So basically I'm nuts, but we already knew that did we?

I found a new blog today. And I love it

Found a great blog today one you should so check out. Confessions of a Random Chick. I love it!

Its just not my day.

I've cried about 4 times today, teared up another million. I'm so hungry I've been asking for a porterhouse. The stupid Women's Wellness Center decided they needed to cancel my appointment for a mammogram so they could hold a staff meeting instead. I spent days trying to find someone to pick up my children - now all for nothing. I haven't slept worth a damn in weeks, my back hurts, my boob hurts so bad I can barely tolerate a bra. My husband doesn't really want to discuss this with me - I completely understand, but who do you really talk to about feeling like your having a nervous breakdown and no one will listen?

Your blog that who. Blogs always listen and they are not judgemental either.

I have a call into the Gyn. I'll try with all my might to maintain calm, but I don't think it will happen.

CLARIFICATION: I didn't mean my husband wouldn't speak with me about my hormonal problems, I meant that the last thing any man wants to do is have a 45 minute conversation with a woman about her hormones issues.

One with a picture and a movie

Saturday my sister, Stehle and I went on a little adventure in East Texas.  We started out first watching the sunrise over White Rock Lake.  

Then ended up going into every cemetery we passed, 1st the Oldest Catholic Cemetery in Dallas that I went and visited with SpookyRach a while back.  Then we went to Greenwood Cemetery that is across the street - Rachel & I didn't manage to get in there as it was locked, but Stehle and I did and what an eye-opening experience.  First it was extremely well kept and loaded with veterans and interesting monuments.  I loved the streets signs.  We also visited Sand Flats Cemetery in Van Zandt County which was not kept up.  It had a pile of brush in the center that was just sad.  Behind the Sand Flats Cemetery was the Pioneer Cemetery in even worse shape.  It took us 15 minutes to pick all the sticker burrs out of our socks and shoes.  

I couldn't do the blogger slide show due to the size of the file, so I uploaded it to youtube.  Check it out.  

I'm too old????

I was talking at work yesterday with a girl in the office about music.  I said I had a song stuck in my head by Does it Offend You, Yeah?  We also talked about Foo Fighters (my fav!), Jackson United, Kings of Leon, Keane, Death Cab for Cutie & The Verve.    

Some of my current favorites.  

I was informed by a gentleman in my office I was too old to listen to that stuff.  What??????  I realize I'm 40, but my life hasn't ended.  You don't turn 40 and immediately like elevator music or prefer singer songwriters from the 70's.  Oh, and I do like singer/songwriters from the 70's.  I love 80's music.  But I could listen to Sirius' ALT NATION all day long!  I could!  Honest to you-know-who.

Who else do I love?  Interpol, Cold War Kids, Kaiser Chiefs (love the new single!), The Black Keys, Low vs. Diamond, and MGMT.  I also love my classics like The Who, The Clash, Pink Floyd.  Great 80's & 90's bands you know the ones you hear on 1st Wave.  AND TOM JONES ROCKS LIVE!

I love music and I hate that some - forgive me for saying this - old dude says that now that I've hit my 40's I can't listen to what I like.  Go back to your easy listening/elevator music and leave me to discover the latest next big thing.

Hormone Overload!

I went to the Doctor, who mostly confirmed my boob diagnosis of overactive hormones.  She said its probably fibroids brought on by hormone fluctuations.  I will go get another Mammogram (yea squishies!) and an ultrasound just to be on the safe side.  Whoopee!  Can't wait!

Also, I am extremely hungry right now and I can't figure out why because I've eaten enough in the last hour for two people.  I'm going for hormones again.

UGH! Interruption by strange noise coming from cat. Not sounding good - whatever it was I hope it wasn't on the carpet.  Better go check it out.  Found nothing.....yet.  Please let there be nothing.

I'm off to Pilates to work off what I just ate.  

All this and I'm surprisingly upbeat

Today is not so much a bad day as its just off. I have a pain, a pain that I've had for about two weeks, it actually hurt so much this morning that I made an appointment to go see the doctor. I wouldn't normally 1) because its the female doctor and I already have my yearly coming up in less that a month & 2) I tend to procrastinate. But its my boob and I've already had one cyst removed and lack feeling in it most of the time; and I really don't want to find that I have a second one and didn't do anything about it. I'm sure I'll get a lecture for not calling earlier, but its probably just hormones. Better safe than sorry though.

I'm also incredibly disappointed with people today. My husband and I have a friend that's having a tough time and you know what - I'm pissed off that anyone would act with such callousness and hate for another human being. What really pisses me off is that its a woman doing this to her ex. I mean, its over, move on with your life. Beating someone else in the ground will not better you. And just in case you haven't been made aware of this there is thing called Karma. It will get you, I promise and I've already put my name in for a front row seat and a bag of popcorn to watch your demise.

The little cat Cagey who is just getting over a giant wound from his last war with one of the neighbors cats, has come home with a new giant wound. Luckily it is in the shaved area already, so maybe I can avoid another trip to the vet. The antibiotic shot he got is still in effect, so maybe I'm saved another vet bill.

I did manage to watch Private Practice & Dirty Sexy Money last night. YEA! I kind of liked what they did with Private Practice making it a little more edgy with moral dilemmas. I'm kind of wondering what happened to the blond chick - the twin on DSM. I mean where did she go? Did we just lose a character or what? Not as excited with DSM as I was last year. It may get marked off my list if it doesn't improve soon.

Presents? For me......?

OK, yes they are for me, I bought them. Fortunately, not with my own money! Yea!! Someone else's money. That is the best kind. True Fact!

So I spent the rest of my William Sonoma Gift Card from my birthday last night. Got my first piece of All Clad. WHOO!! HOO!! An 11" French Skillet. I also purchased a salad spinner - that was really for the husband and he's in charge of salads. I know that is a strange comment, but he likes salads and he's always wanted one, so I made him happy and me happy.

That is a win-win situation if I've ever heard one. OH NO, did I just say something positive. The world must be ending.

Where did this come from?

I actually got a good nights sleep last night. My reward the most awful dream. I'm totally afraid to post what the dream is about because well, it was weird and involved having to dispose of bodies. I will state for the record that I did not kill anyone in my dream, it was someone else, but apparently I was an accessory after the fact because I tried to help in the disposal. I think maybe I've been watching too many crime drama's on TV, plus the really awesome TRUEBLOOD on HBO. Maybe there really is something to that too much violence on TV.

I will say after staying up an hour in the middle of the night after that dream I did go back to sleep and I had a nice dream about John Mayer rubbing my feet. John, feel free to come back anytime and rub my feet again you were awesome!

I got tagged

I was tagged by Princess Mindy for the a six unremarkable things about me meme that is floating around out there. It will be hard to contain it to just 6 me things.

1. I am a night owl and not a morning person.  I like to sleep in and stay up late.  Just me.
   
2. I like cats.  I like to snuggle up to something that keeps me warm at night and that doesn't require me to get up at oh-dark-thirty to let them out to pee.
3. I am LOUD.  Yes, I said it.  I'm loud my natural volume is probably 2 decibels over anyone else who is reading this.  
4. I am constantly cleaning out something, but I never seem to truly accomplish organization.  (I blame this on the men I live with - all three of them.)
5. I am the most loyal friend you will ever find - how boring! I wish I was the one you never forget because I always do something outrageous.
6. I can never make the final decision as to where we are going out to eat.  I never want to "choose" the restaurant someone else hates.

If you read this consider yourself tagged.  HEH! HEH!   Yes, this means you too Unstable.

An incredible man

It takes an incredible man to take a hot topic like a presidential election debate with the first black candidate off the front page, but Paul Newman was an incredible man. It brought tears to my eyes to see that "old blue eyes" was no longer with us. He did a wealth of good for our world, some by giving us entertainment, some by just helping the little guy and he did it without fanfare. Someone, the world could learn a little from. My thoughts and prayers go to his family and friends - the world is a little darker place with out him.

I've got the hiccups.

Almost 3 posts in one day, its 1 minute past midnight and why I'm typing I don't know.  I do have a nasty case of the hiccups, for some strange reason.  My mother always told me I was growing when that happened.  Jeez, I hope its not my feet or my stomach.  I have enough of those.  Maybe it should be my boobs.  I'm mean I do have DD's but maybe it would make my stomach look smaller. 

I just finish the Sex in the City movie.  It was good, not what I expected, even though I was told it was not going to be what I expected.  I still enjoyed it, I cried (I am such a sap!)  And I can't believe Samantha didn't get it on with Dante.  He was HOT!  

Anywho, I'm off to bed, hopefully the hiccups will go away and I'll get some sleep and be able to get up in the AM.  Goodnight.

NO, NO, NO

The only way to keep the economy going is for the American People to have money to spend.  Not credit, money.  So stupid politicians, do not give the stupid companies who screwed up so much that their company is broke or run down into the ground money.  Its not the companies we need to keep moving, its the people.  If the people can spend money, companies will benefit.  Makes sense right?

And that's all I have to say about that.

I can fix the ecomomy!

I know you are sitting around wondering how I can do this. Well, here's my plan - oh, and my husband helped. The government says we need $700 Billion in bailouts. Well, we can do this soooo much cheaper. We have approximately 305 million people in the US. So we take we give everyone $1 million dollars to pay off their bills and "BOOM!"; we've fixed the economy for only $305 million instead of $700 billion. Now I understand some business might fail, but think of all the mortgage companies that would be fixed if everyone could pay off their mortgages. And if business made stupid decisions, they deserve to fail.

Now, there are people who say that you give someone a million bucks and they are going to spend it on other things instead of paying off their bills. OK, lets revise this. Everyone presents a detailed list of their bills, government pays off current bills up to $1 million dollars. Then we could solve the worlds problems for even less, because my bills don't equal a million dollars. Do yours?

Dijea for President. Or maybe Secretary of the Treasury.